working or not...
Wednesday, October 07, 2009 (5:32 PM)
it's been three days since i returned from the 5-week long trip to thailand and i haven't gotten back into the momentum of being at work. the pace and speed of my work is still there but the kind of energy is missing. perhaps 'cause i haven't been sleeping enough in thailand. the intensive course took hours of my sleep away each night and after those times, i am worn but i loved every bit of it. ask me if i'll do it again if time turns back, i wouldn't bat an eyelid when i say "yes". no doubts, no hesitation. the course was great, the trainers were great and the fellow trainees were marvellous. there couldn't have been a better time to do this course.
the previous course had 9 trainees. 3 dropped out and 1 failed. the current batch has 18-19 of them having to do 9 training practices. three days into the course, they have 1 dropout. although 1 guy failed in our batch, i'm thankful that no one dropped the course.
i've been submitting lots of applications for work overseas and haven't had much luck since. one corporation in japan responded pretty positively and i was told to email them my details by 1st october. but upon research on the school, it appears that it promotes fraternization and doesn't exactly have that cool a reputation in japan. so, i didn't reply to that email. the name of the company also makes it dubious. i am not a gigolo!
anyway, i've been contemplating leaving work but the bonus and the prospect of not having anything to do when i quit is too great a hinder. what if after leaving i still can't find work? i've got pretty good advice from friends and one of which was that if i have the financial means to go overseas to source for work for some time, then i should just head there instead of waiting and waiting. then again, no matter how in to pursuing our dreams we are, the singapore blood in us still spells "pragmatism". jeez... let me bleed dry.