i talk to my wife, one second
Thursday, October 27, 2005 (10:50 PM)
the russell peters thing is losing me friends. i keep doing it and people get irritated. haha... of course they don't just cut ties because of that. things need to be exaggerated so as to bring the idea across. i had been doing the 'confucius say...' thing last week. this week, it's 'dom lah, seng seng dong gou wa'.
last week, when kaori crashed my lecture, there were 2 ladies standing in front of the lecture theatre. one wearing all white (our lecturer), another wearing all black (someone i don't know). then kaori pointed to their direction and asked, 'is she your lecturer?'.
i whispered, 'the one in white'.
she was like 'what?!'
i repeated, 'in white, that lady in white'
she was shocked, 'your wife?!'
well, imagine me having a south korean wife with a phd lecturing me, not even halfway to a bachelor degree. then guang and i were saying, imagine that she's really my wife, if someone asks me something like, 'what does this mean? i don't understand what she's saying.' i'd probably go, 'hold on one second, i talk to my wife, one second...' then i'll shout across the theatre, 'dom lah! seng seng dong gou wa!'
so we learnt that adjuncts are unnecessary stuff, or extra info. what does it mean when people say, 'she's an adjunct professor'?
i tried helping sensei do some msaccess database with asp stuff for her library records but apparently, her web host server is running on linux - chance is it's without chiliasp - and her pc's running winxp home edition, which means no iis. of course there are tips to work things around but 'at your own risk' so i better not risk their pc, or lose my reputation.
2 more days of work before i officially stop working. it was a short stint but, i've learnt quite a number of things that work didn't teach me and guang, has been searching for jobs in vain. cool it man... just wait for the nobel peace price. you can survive without it anyway. =)
3 hr work for a lifetime's advice
Thursday, October 20, 2005 (11:05 PM)
honestly, i was so dead tired today, i really didn't want to go work. i wanted to call in sick, but i had to be responsible and not make things difficult for han ling who helped me so much. so i called to tell her my situation and said i might not work during the weekdays after today. i managed to force myself to work and exchanged this 3 hours of work for a lifetime's advice.
i was talking to her before work begun at 6pm. it was all straight talk. no holds barred - not really. i just told her that i feel that certain things the school does is not what an employer should do, putting unnecessary pressure by indirectly scrutinizing their work. it's totally disrespectful and insulting to the employee by showing your mistrust, in my perspective.
i could totally tell that she isn't happy working there due to certain ways the school handles things. but she taught me a lot more. no matter how much people discredit you for your credits, what's most important is to not do injustice to your conscience. don't owe people. even when the school lets her leave her place of work early, say for example 2 hours earlier, she will get to work 2 hours early. no matter what, she will make sure she does at least a full 8 hours of work everyday. she doesn't want to owe anyone anything. she taught me not to owe people and to stand by your principle. just because your boss indirectly showed you disrespect doesn't mean you should do your job sloppily.
salute to han ling. someday, you'll find a job that is worthy of you.
$18.90 vs rash
Saturday, October 15, 2005 (11:14 AM)
people who know me way before army would've known of my sensitive skin or flesh if you would call it. for some reason i don't know, rash started developing when i was in secondary 3. since then, whenever the weather gets terribly hot and humid, my body would start developing rash. i've seen many doctors many times and a few years ago, it came under control. i was able to scratch my itch again without fear that rash would appear.
a week ago, i went to china one with lincoln, jeannie and a number of japanese friends. i knew i couldn't take alcohol because of my weak gastric but i never knew that i would rash from it. so i told lincoln to order something non-alcoholic for me and being a prankster, he did what he does best, ordered a 40% alcoholic drink for me. i knew he does things like that but i chose to give him the benefit of the doubt. in the end, i downed 'waterfall'. the mild giddiness was alright to me. it was the rash that developed the following morning that killed me. up till now, it's still not recovered though it's much better now.
years ago, i was told that the reason for my rash was because of the temperature of my blood which is warmer than it should be. so i suppose the reason the rash is back is because of the alcohol which 'heated' up my blood stream. i'm still hoping it'll go away and i'll never touch something with that much alcohol again.
i was talking to ben about it and unexpectedly, he was kinda unhappy about it. haha... he said, 'you should go see the doctor and ask him to pay for it'. lol... relax ben... i suppose lincoln's still young that's why he did what he did. i'm ok with it though i'm really worried about the rash but i thought he wasn't totally at fault. i could've refused to drink it when it first burnt my throat. $18.90 vs rash, i think i'd choose to waste the money.
and for marketing purposes, the six-string extravaganza will be on 17th december 2005, saturday night. venue to be confirmed. so everyone please keep that day free. this will be the best performance ever in the history of sembawang cc guitar club!
20th august 2005
Monday, October 03, 2005 (9:46 PM)
something huge happened in the family. something heartbreaking. it isn't that i haven't thought of it before but what just happened made me feel more strongly about quitting school and starting work. i cannot deny the benefits of getting a degree yet i cannot be blinded by an artificially better prospect. i feel a need and an urgent need at that, to start earning some income for myself, for mum. not so much for my home - yet.
i see my cousin started yet another business and it's been getting some clients coming in. i see his hardwork and what is paying off. it's not a big payout as of now since it just took off but he's definitely going the direction he wants.
i thought i was really stone cold (nothing to do with wrestling). i felt an enormous grief on the day of the news. same thing on the following day. less of it for the subsequent 2 days. on the last day, the grief came back and now that it's over, it's still hanging on to me. i feel i'm missing someone precious.
20th august 2005, a day i will never forget. mum asked if i wanted to go for a 1-day singapore tour with her and my maternal grandma. i said i already paid for the summer festival ticket to be held at the japanese school changi campus - price $10. a few days before that saturday, mum asked again forgetting that i already had an 'appointment'. so i told her that i'm going to the japanese school for the summer festival. i thought, 'maybe next time'. regret. it really isn't important that the summer festival didn't turn out fun. i've given up the chance - the last chance - to have a day out with my maternal grandma for $10, and for meeting friends whom i haven't met for a long time not realising that i haven't seen my grandma even longer. early this year, at grandma's birthday celebration, i had thought of creating some kind of joke by rapping a bit of 周杰伦's 外婆 since the first sentence is 今天是外婆生日. i forgot to do it and thought, 'it's ok, i can do it next year'. next year? not anymore...
i've waited too much. procrastinated too much. didn't know how to prioritise. i think we need to learn to cherish every moment for we never know what's going to happen the next day. i always say 'maybe next time'. don't do that for there may never be a 'next time'. i always try to end my entries with a short humour. not this time.