the levil and the frangel
Saturday, February 28, 2009 (9:51 PM)
let's do the really outdated riddle...
q: what's the difference between mr. lonely and mr. freedom?
a: they are the same person!
well, i tried casting them as the devil and the halo guy but couldn't really figure who's who. somehow, loneliness became the devil and freedom became the angel. it's not like i dread my freedom but it seems that the 2 worlds we're caught in between are always mutually exclusive.
since the last time something ended, i've been breathing better. a lot better. and unfortunately, that has also made me dread starting another one. after months and years of freedom, i'm getting so used to it, i'm beginning to develop a phobia of being with another person. on the other hand, i would at times wonder what it'd be like to feel that way again. but the experience would always tell me, "no!" and then something would hop off my left shoulder and go, "hey! you're lonely!" and they fight.
but for some reason, it always ends in a draw and i know not what to do. mostly though, the levil wins and i stay where i am. i'm happy. or maybe i'm just escaping. some time ago, i heard this, "escapism is worse than making a bad decision".
but what if i've made the bad decision to escape?