raped
Saturday, December 08, 2007 (9:40 PM)
i chanced upon the blog of a module mate with half the universe in his head. then again, i have to admit i didn't exactly "chance upon" it. i made a deliberate attempt to search and met the alter ego. it's interesting on the one hand to be seeing another side of people you know. at the same time, begin to wonder why the many thoughts that linger in people's minds get articulated so well by some and not by others. why are people able to write so much?
2.5 years of university education has brainwashed me to some extent. the most prominent of influences, i would believe, comes from this semester. somehow or another, a whole lot of what i've been taught spill out of my brain to the point that i do occasionally feel a bit sick. sick of viewing the world in this light, sick of being rationale, sick of being so politically correct. sometimes, i just wanna get back to the days when i behave like the masses and be unpolitically correct and voice my opinion in the most egocentric perspective. i feel raped. my mind feels raped. is education the source of empowerment? i wonder. i doubt.
i tried stepping away from my university knowledge and returning to what i got from my poly days. halfway through explaining the different monitors to a friend, i felt geeky. really geeky and i halted.
somehow i realised people don't really believe what i say at times. in dr. a's words, i probably lack in the trustworthiness department in terms of credibility even when i'm talking about things i'm 100% certain i am more well-versed in as compared to my interlocuter(s). i feel some sense of grievance when my interlocuter say with 100% certainty that i know not what i am talking about. sometimes the tone reek of sarcarsm as much as i know what the other party say is incorrect. one may do a lot better in his/her modules but that doesn't mean that s/he is more knowledgeable in every field. i dread meeting the high flyers at times. look at my pitiful attempt to be politically correct again. cest la vie? look at my previous post on sexism and you know what i mean. i am raped. i'm sorry if i do the same to you. what comes around goes around.