my music and i
Sunday, November 11, 2007 (11:50 AM)
after reading jx's post, i got inspired to write something longer in an apparently futile attempt to regain my loyal readers - if they existed at all.
no, i don't have any fairy tales to share. is that saddening? i have no idea. there's probably some pros and cons. to be honest, i have been typing quite a number of stuff without publishing because they are all what we do best - complaints. which was why i didn't publish. i think typing them out is an outlet decent enough and being my age, i probably know how to control my anger better. moreover, some of the complaints are quite unacceptable by my own standards.
enough said.
i came in with the intention of doing the same thing but by the time i sat down, all anger dissipated.
it's been a long time since i last did any composition. maybe it's due to the lack of inspiration. maybe it's due to laziness. i dread doing arrangements. it was until recently when a friend approached me for help that i started picking up my instruments again only to realise it isn't supposed to be a plug-and-play thing in its most literal sense. so i had to start figuring out how to work the new software and it sounded really bad initially till i realised most of its functions are the same as my keyboard, it started to get really easy then. though the quality still couldn't match my casio, i suspect its coz of my lousy monitor speaker. but its still tough to work out something i'm really satisfied with all those constraints. i'm still not very happy with the ending but i guess it'll do fine.
going back to jx's fairy tale, somehow i feel that the voyeuristic nature in us really crave to learn some of others' inner secrets and thoughts that i almost wanted to ask him about the princess in his fairy tale. though i'm like guessing and have a bit of an idea who this person is, i decided against asking because secrets are meant to be secrets and because of its very secrecy that it means a lot more to oneself to reminisce when the sky's dark and the stars shine. we aren't so concerned about the moon. i wonder why