a supporter's thought
Thursday, July 20, 2006 (9:42 PM)
sometimes i think back about the personality styles workshop i attended and as ridiculous as it sounds, the 6 billion population is divided into 4 major personality types. i'm not going to go through all of them but being of "supporter" style - which is not exactly what the name implies - i'm really one who seeks pleasure in recognition. then again, who doesn't? so this analysis isn't that much of an analysis after all, maybe. but having worked for almost 3 months with my current company, i feel that i'm not adding value to the company. at times, i feel outcasted since everyone else is doing list researching.
sure, at times i do list researching but my main role is data-entry and as much as our department find displeasure in others' disrespect of database, they might themselves find data-entering a low-down job which doesn't add much value to the department. ultimately, they might have thought twice about hiring another data-entry personnel again.
whenever i am asked to do list researching, as nerve-wrecking as it might get, i'm really alright with it despite that i always joke about leaving the company on the day that i hear i'm going to make phone calls or that i'll teach non-chinese-speaking colleagues mandarin so that they can do the calling instead. sometimes, i just wanna let loose, be more of myself, the crappy nonsense who pokes fun at anything possible. mixing with my colleagues well would do great and they are a lot of fun people to be with. but sometimes, people may take my joke too seriously, especially when i talk about it too often and then the manager starts to think that i may be serious about my dislike for calling.
to be honest, i really don't like calling and everyone else in the department doesn't like it either. who does? but as a job, we'll do it. next week, i'll be doing some de-duplication process and should be calling overseas again. wish me luck...
whenever i get a list to enter, i try my best to do it in the shortest time possible. in the first 2 months, whenever i finish an assignment, i didn't tell anyone. i just thought they would look into my assignment completion list and copy it out when it's completed - that's what the list is for, isn't it? - but nope. so my folder gets crowded and crowded until one fine day, i realised it had to be copied to the respective researcher's folder or inform one of them about the completion. so fine, that ain't so hard...
then i get more lists and an unbelievably long one that the others on queue were put on hold by it. the senior researchers look urgent about the ones following, so in order to make sure i get it done quick, i emailed the file to my mailbox and took note of the url with the contents to be entered. over the weekend, i did my job at home and sent the updated copy to my mailbox so as to retrieve in the company. but who knew?
yusma asked me recently if i am ok to stay back for overtime to do more data-entries. i thought about it a while and came up with the conclusion that i wouldn't want to stay there after work. if anything, i'd rather take the work home to do them, even if i'm not paid for this kind of "overtime" work. i didn't say it and decided i'll just reject this overtime request.
i appreciate it when trudy asked me to go back to epson to work during my holidays. today an account took place, i felt unappreciated but that's the thing when it comes to adhoc duties. no one cares although it's something everyone says they want to do since it's simple and pays the same but do people really want to do it? when it comes to actually doing it, even eka feels that it is some unrespected low-down job, opening mailers, handling return mails.
no appreciation for my effort? fine. even if someday, maybe on my last day of work, people say they appreciate my work, it does feel good. doesn't really matter if they mean it. that's the sorrow of a supporter.
but i cannot deny the people in the company were a great lot of fun. thanks for the experience.